Friday, May 21, 2010
Audrey Caroline
The video to I WILL CARRY YOU - Audrey's Song....and now according to Sage..Sayla's Song!!1
Author Spotlight: Angie Smith
In 2008, Angie Smith and her husband Todd (lead singer of the group Selah) learned through ultrasound that their fourth daughter had conditions making her “incompatible with life.” Advised to terminate the pregnancy, the Smiths chose instead to carry this child and allow room for a miracle. That miracle came the day they met Audrey Caroline and got the chance to love her for the precious two-and-a-half hours she lived on earth.
Upon receiving the original diagnosis, Angie started a blog (Bring the Rain) to keep family and friends informed of their journey. Soon, the site exploded in popularity, connecting with thousands who were either experiencing their own heartbreaking situations or simply curious about how God could carry someone through something so tragic. I Will Carry You tells the powerful story of a parent losing her child, interwoven with the biblical story of Lazarus to help those who mourn to still have hope—to find grace and peace in the sacred dance of grief and joy.
In TOTAL Awh at nap time !!!
I was laying down with Sage (who loves to fight nap time) and I couldn't nap myself for thinking about something so awesome. First I want to share the words to a song that we found by a gospel group..."Selah". Yes, the Lord has led us to a wonderful group with the same name as our Baby girl. What is so wonderful is that one of the singers for the group has a story like ours. I got the book "I Will Carry You" for Mother's Day along with their CD. I can't stop listening to it. I want to post the video and link to their story because it is unbelieveable how God has basically handed this story to our family. I wil hopefully figure out how to get it to post on the blog, but in the mean time, here are the song lyrics...
I Will Carry You from the CD Selah- You Deliver Me
There were photographs I wanted to take
Things I wanted to show you
Sing sweet lullabies, wipe your teary eyes
Who could love you like this?
People say that I am brave, but I'm not
Truth is I'm barely hanging on
But there's a greater story
Written long before me
Because He loves you like this
So I will carry you
While your heart beats here
Long beyond the empty cradle
Through the coming years
I will carry you
All my life
And I will praise the One who's chosen me
To Carry YOU
Such a short time
Such a long road
All this madness
But i know
That the silence
Has brought me to His voice
And He says...
I've shown her photographs of time beginning
Walked her through the parted sea
Angel lullabies, no more teary eyes
Who could love her like this?
I will carry you
While your heart beats here
Long beyond the empty cradle
Through the coming years
I will carry you
All your life
And I will praise the One who's chosen me
To carry You
...what i am in total awh about is that it may be real soon that Jesus takes my baby girl by the hand and walks her through the parted sea, while she hears the angels sing her lullabies, and she never has to experience hurt or pain...WHAT A DAY THAT WILL BE!!! AND THE BEST PART IS ONE DAY BECAUSE HE IS LORD OF MY LIFE...I WILL BE ABLE TO TAKE THAT WALK HOLDING MY BABY GIRL'S LITTLE HAND TOO. SHE WILL BE ABLE TO GIVE ME THE TOUR OF HEAVEN!! Thank you Jesus for saving my soul and letting me be a witness to others through the trials!!! i love you SAYLA GRACE HADLEY...MOMMY!!
I Will Carry You from the CD Selah- You Deliver Me
There were photographs I wanted to take
Things I wanted to show you
Sing sweet lullabies, wipe your teary eyes
Who could love you like this?
People say that I am brave, but I'm not
Truth is I'm barely hanging on
But there's a greater story
Written long before me
Because He loves you like this
So I will carry you
While your heart beats here
Long beyond the empty cradle
Through the coming years
I will carry you
All my life
And I will praise the One who's chosen me
To Carry YOU
Such a short time
Such a long road
All this madness
But i know
That the silence
Has brought me to His voice
And He says...
I've shown her photographs of time beginning
Walked her through the parted sea
Angel lullabies, no more teary eyes
Who could love her like this?
I will carry you
While your heart beats here
Long beyond the empty cradle
Through the coming years
I will carry you
All your life
And I will praise the One who's chosen me
To carry You
...what i am in total awh about is that it may be real soon that Jesus takes my baby girl by the hand and walks her through the parted sea, while she hears the angels sing her lullabies, and she never has to experience hurt or pain...WHAT A DAY THAT WILL BE!!! AND THE BEST PART IS ONE DAY BECAUSE HE IS LORD OF MY LIFE...I WILL BE ABLE TO TAKE THAT WALK HOLDING MY BABY GIRL'S LITTLE HAND TOO. SHE WILL BE ABLE TO GIVE ME THE TOUR OF HEAVEN!! Thank you Jesus for saving my soul and letting me be a witness to others through the trials!!! i love you SAYLA GRACE HADLEY...MOMMY!!
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
May 17th doctor visit
We had an ultrasound yesterday... I am going to try to upload the pics too...doctor says she (we have a wonderful female doctor) is seeing signs that Sayla may not be with us much longer....but ya know, they have said that from the beginning and I am officially 28 weeks today. Keep praying for God's Will in her life. I am so honored to have the chance to love this much!!! Sage was talking this morning about how much she loved Baby Sayla Grace....pray for wisdom and for God to comfort Sage and give her the understanding that she needs!!
Naming baby girl...
We realized we needed a name for our little angel girl...i was telling a friend of mine at the gym that I wanted a special name for a special girl. Tracey Weatherford got online and found the name Sayla. She found that the name meant "peace" and we knew it was perfect for her...Peace and Grace! That is what we pray for daily for her!!
In the Beginning....
In the Beginning...
Ok...i think I am ready to begin this journey of "blogging". I wanted to have a place to share our journey through the birth of our Baby Sayla Grace Hadley. I have some catching up to do so bear with me. I want to go backward a little to share her story.
I found out we were pregnant in November. We were both VERY surprised because (unlike with Sage and the wonderful life prior to Sage that we miscarried) there were no day counting or monthly pregnancy test in hopes that this would be "IT". We were completely thrown off guard by the news...Daniel especially!! We had the routine ultrasounds and doctor visits with a few heart rate scares, but at that time, nothing seemed too serious.
I had to go in for an ultrasound at 17 weeks due to some cramping and Daniel insisted that we find out what the gender was if they were able to tell. I went by myself, leaving Sage with mom. The doctors could see nothing wrong but could clearly tell that "IT WAS A SHE"!!! I was excited (although a little boy would have been ok too)..all Daniel could say was "Are they sure?".
Wednesday, March 24, 2010 ....the day we will never forget. I went in for a 20 week ultrasound. I ended up having to go by myself because Daniel had some work that had to be done. We figured it was just another check up because we had only been in 3 weeks prior and everything seemed fine. The ultrasound tech ( i guess that is the correct name for her) took her time looked and taking lots of pics. Soon she told me to get up and walk around because she couldn't get a few of the pics that she needed. Hoping stubborn little girl would move around for the correct pics... I did and sat back down for another try...and another and another. On the final attempt, my Dr came in and I knew something wasn't right. They talked quietly while I laid there in complete shock. I was told that some of the heart "parts" were not visible, she told me to get dressed and meet her at the office. My heart dropped COMPLETELY!
I called Daniel, hysterical. I knew something wasn't right and I had no idea what it was. I waited, what seemed like forever, in the office for Dr. Tidwell to come in. She came in with a grim look on her face.....
Prognosis was that she has some heart defects, physical abnormalities, and some possible brain defects. My world crashed down on me. She recommended us see a specialist at the Atlanta Perinatal Consultant for a follow up. The appointment was made for the following morning.
Thursday, March 25...We made the long trip to Atlanta and I am sure that neither Daniel nor I said a word for the entire trip. We saw the doctor and an ultrasound confirmed a number of defects with our baby girl! Words can not even begin to express the desperation and grief in us. We were told that she had a condition (could be a chromosome 13 or 18 defect) that was “not compatible with life”. She would not survive!! The doctor recommended a amniocentesis to confirm the diagnosis. There was an opening for 1pm, so Daniel and I went to lunch and came back for the testing. The amnio would be back the following day to give us the preliminary results, but would only confirm a chromosome defect with chromosomes number 13, 18, and 21. We waited patiently and the call came.....no confirmation on the defects that the doctor had thought, so we would have to wait 7 – 10 days for the full report. Those were some anxious days!!
Monday, April 5, 2010...the day after Easter..the call came. The test confirmed that she has a Chromosome 22 defect (an extra chromosome). This type of defect is “not sustainable with life” and actually, the doctors are not sure why she is still alive (remember this was a 20 weeks). Babies with this condition do not usually live past the first trimester and the chances of having a baby with this condition seem to be about 1:175000...yeah I know hard to believe! The plan of action is to monitor the babies’ heart rate until she passes...did this doctor know about the prayer warriors that are praying for this little miracle baby!!
Monday, April 29th..... Ultrasound appointment...Sayla Grace is up to 1 lb. 3 oz. The ultrasound tech was able to see 4 chambers of her heart (something not seen previously) and her weight is up.... (I will tell you how we found her precious name a little later). These are things that we were not expected to see and we are confident that God has His Hands on this little life. We are comforted by the fact that He gave us this child and He has total control of her and our lives at this point. Her body will be healed sometime soon! Next ultrasound May 17th!
Ok...i think I am ready to begin this journey of "blogging". I wanted to have a place to share our journey through the birth of our Baby Sayla Grace Hadley. I have some catching up to do so bear with me. I want to go backward a little to share her story.
I found out we were pregnant in November. We were both VERY surprised because (unlike with Sage and the wonderful life prior to Sage that we miscarried) there were no day counting or monthly pregnancy test in hopes that this would be "IT". We were completely thrown off guard by the news...Daniel especially!! We had the routine ultrasounds and doctor visits with a few heart rate scares, but at that time, nothing seemed too serious.
I had to go in for an ultrasound at 17 weeks due to some cramping and Daniel insisted that we find out what the gender was if they were able to tell. I went by myself, leaving Sage with mom. The doctors could see nothing wrong but could clearly tell that "IT WAS A SHE"!!! I was excited (although a little boy would have been ok too)..all Daniel could say was "Are they sure?".
Wednesday, March 24, 2010 ....the day we will never forget. I went in for a 20 week ultrasound. I ended up having to go by myself because Daniel had some work that had to be done. We figured it was just another check up because we had only been in 3 weeks prior and everything seemed fine. The ultrasound tech ( i guess that is the correct name for her) took her time looked and taking lots of pics. Soon she told me to get up and walk around because she couldn't get a few of the pics that she needed. Hoping stubborn little girl would move around for the correct pics... I did and sat back down for another try...and another and another. On the final attempt, my Dr came in and I knew something wasn't right. They talked quietly while I laid there in complete shock. I was told that some of the heart "parts" were not visible, she told me to get dressed and meet her at the office. My heart dropped COMPLETELY!
I called Daniel, hysterical. I knew something wasn't right and I had no idea what it was. I waited, what seemed like forever, in the office for Dr. Tidwell to come in. She came in with a grim look on her face.....
Prognosis was that she has some heart defects, physical abnormalities, and some possible brain defects. My world crashed down on me. She recommended us see a specialist at the Atlanta Perinatal Consultant for a follow up. The appointment was made for the following morning.
Thursday, March 25...We made the long trip to Atlanta and I am sure that neither Daniel nor I said a word for the entire trip. We saw the doctor and an ultrasound confirmed a number of defects with our baby girl! Words can not even begin to express the desperation and grief in us. We were told that she had a condition (could be a chromosome 13 or 18 defect) that was “not compatible with life”. She would not survive!! The doctor recommended a amniocentesis to confirm the diagnosis. There was an opening for 1pm, so Daniel and I went to lunch and came back for the testing. The amnio would be back the following day to give us the preliminary results, but would only confirm a chromosome defect with chromosomes number 13, 18, and 21. We waited patiently and the call came.....no confirmation on the defects that the doctor had thought, so we would have to wait 7 – 10 days for the full report. Those were some anxious days!!
Monday, April 5, 2010...the day after Easter..the call came. The test confirmed that she has a Chromosome 22 defect (an extra chromosome). This type of defect is “not sustainable with life” and actually, the doctors are not sure why she is still alive (remember this was a 20 weeks). Babies with this condition do not usually live past the first trimester and the chances of having a baby with this condition seem to be about 1:175000...yeah I know hard to believe! The plan of action is to monitor the babies’ heart rate until she passes...did this doctor know about the prayer warriors that are praying for this little miracle baby!!
Monday, April 29th..... Ultrasound appointment...Sayla Grace is up to 1 lb. 3 oz. The ultrasound tech was able to see 4 chambers of her heart (something not seen previously) and her weight is up.... (I will tell you how we found her precious name a little later). These are things that we were not expected to see and we are confident that God has His Hands on this little life. We are comforted by the fact that He gave us this child and He has total control of her and our lives at this point. Her body will be healed sometime soon! Next ultrasound May 17th!
Thursday, May 13, 2010
My First Attempt...:)
This is my first attempt at blogging, so before I started the updates, I wanted to see what this "blogging" thing was all about!
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